Claudia

Ok what is cheating really?...is it a kiss on the cheek?is it a kiss on the mouth,is it a french kiss? or is it to have sex with another person besides your partner? A lot of things could happend,you could get surpised by a kiss on the mouth by a friend and u didint see it coming,you could be drunk and kiss a person and dont remember it the next day or you could wake up next to somebody who is not your partner. Define cheating? My thoughts are the minute you are thinking of being with another person is cheating(dump her/him)! I mean a thought can go so far,and acction speak louder than words.Everybody makes mistakes right? We are so afraid of making them that we end up making them more than ones. When does the nerves of being inlove or loved stops? When do we start realize that we have someone who really truly cares and loves us? We are so used to being singels,reaching for attention and hoping to be in love that we forgat what we wiched for! Be careful for what you wich for it might come true! I really didint think it would for me,i really thought that he would realize that he wasent ready for me and leave me like every other man has,i didint think that he would put up with my mistakes and love me anyways and i didint think that i would have someone who would say,im with you all the way,you will have to break up with me to get rid of me because im here for the long road. Im finally in love and happy that it scares me. Im use to being singel,to flirt,to not saying no,i love kissing and i have done my share in the past so all of this is so new that im scared of making mistakes. I am working and fithing with myself everyday. I go to partys and i try not to flirt(not to smile).try not to be over social,try not to be center of a attention and if a guy wants to talk to me i let them know that i have a boyfriend and im not in the market! Its very hard and i understand men,they must be having a hard time while having someone they love but so many singel,sexy females out there who is flirting and making suggestions ooohhh thats harder i understand beeelive me!! So men flirt,smile and if a women gives you a kiss and you didint see it coming,what can we say its not easy,it never will be!!! People are tricky when tey want something even if its a friend...Remember that and embrace that.

Lesson of the day:
Never ever trust a friend you dont know what they want.
A kiss from a friend sometimes is just a friendly kiss.
The first thought that you might have with another person is cheating.
If you are cheating then you are confused and not inlove.(be singel)
Make love not war!
Until tomorow
Peace,Love & Devotion
Forgivness is big but to forget will never hapend!
XOXO MISS C

Analyze,recognize,realize. we sure have many more of those words in our heads and i do mean women head. We love analyzing,complicating and multiplying our problems in to a big black hole of nothing. Because we just build up in our head with a lot of nossens and all of that nossens is based on insecurity,instability and loneliness. Im talking from my one experience. I love to analyze,to try to see what the other persons thoughts are and try to get in to their heads. Its exciting,uplifting and makes my head twirl. Im weird i know but im also a poet,a philosopher a good writer and a love a good story and finding out how the human mind works. I my self are having a problem not try to analyze things,it makes me just want to disappear,puke,hide under a pillow or just cry. I mean its hard not get jealous,sad or insecure when you are afraid of loosing someone right?. And women are often afraid of that,and we at that moment start to analyze and put on a wall so we can see others weakness,figure them out before they get to close which in a way they already have thats why the wall comes up. Since a was a little girl i have never thought bad about people so i have never had a wall up and analyze those who are near me because i didin´t think they would hurt me but in a hard way i learned that you have to analyze and have a wall so people wont hurt or take advantage of your kindness. It´s hard to find a balance between analyzing and being your own guard of your heart. We don´t need to put on a wall,we don´t need to think bad about people and we dont need to be afraid it comes with life and living is pain but its a bittersweet hapiness. Dont ever forget that analyzing is a way to see the world with bigger and brighter eyes but dont do it with fair and insecure because you might fall deep in to the black hole.

days loong leason:
Analyze why not!!
Analyze to deep be carefoul you might go crazy BELIVE ME!!
Girls stop analyzin men they are not complicated!!
Girls stop trying to read a man there is nothing o read...(:p)
Men start talking we dont like to nag.

Until next time because i might be analyzing some more;)
Peace,Love & Devotion
XOXO MISS C