Claudia

First guy,first kiss,first date,first butterflys,first romantic thought. First movie visit with a man/women,first dinner,firts holding hands moment,the first look that made you wanna fly away trought the sky so high and just scream. we everybody have a story behind us that is both negative and positiv but unfortunaley we have a big bagage that nobody can really take away from your memories,heart or thoughts. We really try to forget and forgive but its really hard when it takes yoy to another lever of pain. The one im talking about its heartache from the person who left you,hurt you,who was unfaithful,lied etc. There is really not an easy way to move on from that. But the thing that makes me so angry is that,lets say one day you meet a person so great,so loveable,sweet,caring,thoughtful and just perfect for you,the problem is that you don´t really know how to open,be real and let her/him in to your life because of the pain of bagage that you have. It left a scar,a whole and a black memory. But this person that came in to your life is helping the progress of pain to heal and to forget. The cuestion is, is she /he worth it? Are we made to be? Can i trust him/her? Can i really see myself in his/her future? The big cuestion is Can i take a risk,open my heart ones again,let her/him in and really just let go? Can i really put myself through everything again? Is he/she worth every pain that i might go trough AGAIN?
My own opinion is you dont really know what might happend. Not every realationship that you have is going to be the same,he/she is not going to react the same regardless of your experience and your pain that you might have. You always have to turn the page and start again or else you might say after a while THE BEST THAT EVER HAPPEND TO ME IS NOT HERE TO SHARE EVERYTHING AND I LET HIM/HER GET AWAY,DO I HAVE A CHANCE?, everytime i get in to a new relationship i try to put my bad memories,and bad bagage a side and think i dosent matter what happends as long as i've tried,gave it all with my heart and soul and never ever let anybody change me ,cus that day that the real person comes its going to be great and the bigest thing of my life.
The future may have a lot of pain but it has a lot of love and
LOVE IS PAIN!!

This night lesson.
Always take a risk dosent matter what.
Never ever stop listening to your heart.
Your gut feeling is powerful.
My babage is positiv and made me who i am today!
Until tomorow or later;)
Peace,love & Devotion
XOXO MISS C

I will never change no matter what i have to go trought,every pain is worth it cus i have a big HEART!!